The Art of Letting go

February 04, 2025

 According to Chinese culture and tradition, 2025 has now begun a new zodiac cycle in the Year of the Snake. It is said that in this year, favourable lunar conditions will mark a great time for promoting growth and transformation. So just as a snake sheds it’s skin, what comforting or cumbersome layers can we also shed away for growth and renewal in our own lives.  


 In some ways, we too can shed our old skin like giving away a bag of clothes to the charity shop.  We may even experience a fleeting moment of regret before rejoicing in the promise of a whole new wardrobe. But it is often the case that we are not prepared to let go of the things that we really love in life when they are taken.
The Year of the Snake can remind us that letting go is one of life’s hardships, that we can all benefit from paying a little more attention. And it is much easier said than done, because whether its ‘loves labour’s lost’, an offspring who’s eagerly flown the nest, that nice shiny thing you can’t find anymore or hanging on to your own stubborn thoughts. Everything comes and everything will go in its own sweet time not ours!


We can want a thing, pay the money and collect a receipt but it still may not remain with us for a lifetime. Sadly, there are a multitude of ways you might lose hold of a nice thing in life. Like when the government compulsory purchased your property for a crazed railroad scheme and thousands of folk couldn’t do a thing about it[1]. Capitalism will have you believe that joy is in the next diamond bracelet or fancy perfume, but it’s actually in those simple things in life that will give us all the lasting happiness that we desire. Because the truth is that the more we have and the nicer those things are, the greater their loss. And this loss isn’t hard to come by… in fact loss lies in wait around every corner, effortlessly catching us off guard time and time again.  
At some point in our lives, we will all fall victim to losing something that we still want to keep hold of, it is the basis of all mental anguish and suffering in this world. It’s a sad situation to which this modern world does not prepare us, and what makes it so hard is that it’s perfectly natural to view having things as normal because its in the use of external things that seems to sustain us… After all, it’s only human nature to want to keep hold of a good thing.


So how do we best deal with this impending and inevitable predicament? Could a pessimistic attitude be helpful here? To defend our walls well and keep a cool detachment from all nice things we come across? Or do we live, love and laugh… in the spiritual knowledge that it is in the experience of all life’s lessons that is the pact of each soul journey to enlightenment… in the daily practice of giving and sharing not keeping and hoarding… in the view that we are mere caretakers not owners… and in the remembering that life just as nature is an ever-changing landscape. A constant and incredible dance of the wheel of death and rebirth, to mourn the loss but always to rejoice in the dawning of the new day that is to come.
When were stuck for answers it is often helpful to look to the natural world to lead by example. We can see that nature does not accumulate or keepth for herself, it is always in a harmonic and symbiotic relationship of living to give and taking from earth what is needed to sustain. Because when we go we will take nothing with us. Live simple and live free.


“When you say you own something you become owned by it”. An conversation with Yogi Vishua Karma, in the kitchen of the Sivananda Yoga Centre London, 2015.


[1] High Speed Rail (HS2) compulsory purchase scandal, https://www.lawgazette.co.uk/news/owners-forced-to-sell-by-hs2-furious-at-cancellation-says-lawyer/5117454.article



Nationalism

December 04, 2024

 "Teaches you to hate people you’ve never met and to take pride in sh*t you haven’t done".

I’ve been watching the European cup finals and I’m relieved to say I was only a teeny bit disappointed when the England team didn’t win and that was probably more so because I felt sorry for their manager Southgate, who seems like a really nice bloke.  Twenty years ago I shed a tear or two after England’s exit out of the 1998 world cup quarters, but I’m pleased to say those days are over.

Yes, I was watching funny cat videos half the match. But when I did try and get into the sport of things, I couldn’t help but think there’s an adventure story in here. Its not that I can’t see the addictive value in watching grown men kick a ball around! Football is fun to play, definitely fun to watch and as far as I can tell there is absolutely nothing wrong in a nice bit of friendly camaraderie; that brings out the competitive spirit in all of us.

That was how I fondly remember football, as I tend to look back on my days of youth with somewhat rose tinted specs… but now in my eyes football had fallen, straight through the hole of the entertainment abyss £££. Just another industry making big money in exploiting the humble supporter, turning a once ernest game into an unpalatable entertainment spectaculaaar! Parading these super star players off the field and through the screen onto the elitist world stage. You may as well have had them singing pop songs for all the wealth and frenzy that is whipped up ...  So why do we love to be entertained by this kind of ‘ghastly’ entertainment?

There’s a lot that can be said for the psychology of the human mind and how these mega industries are able to extract billions away from the common folk. By nature we feel thankful to others for pleasing or enriching our lives in some way and that’s rather a nice quality. But when appreciation ends up on our bedroom walls, inside of our wardrobes and a little too much in our thoughts and actions, then it begins to look a lot like idolisation and we’ve defo* been warned against that one! Yes folks we’ve gone and done it, we’ve filled our hole for reverence with celebrity culture. Damn right we need to see our idols celebrated on a podium and don’t forget the glitter bombs, because nothing says ‘I am the best’ better than a world stage to make clan and country great again… and the more glitter the better.  


With all things in life and especially when dealing with those industries of eye-watering economic advantage, it’s good practice to stop and wonder why things are the way they are. Where are we persuaded to put our money and what is it that we are really supporting, because every purchase will determine the collective direction in which we are ultimately headed. There’s a big difference between honest grass roots football and the other game: - non other than the battle of the brands. No longer a representative game of local talent, but an arena where the richest teams dominate, competition breeds contempt and it’s only in the superiority of winning that really counts.


Keep it real folks! Peace out

*defo – definitely    (support your local lingo) 


Blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth, Mathew 5:5




LABELS

September 03, 2024


 

Once upon a time, the world was full of annoying little sh*t’s in one way or another :-D. 
Some people were naughty, some people didn’t have the sense to know their left from their right (“ahem – don’t ask me to navigate you through town”). Others were a bit stand-offish, or quiet, or talkative, or too talkative! And that was just the splice of life, tonnes of folk; all having their querks and their very own unique ways of being. 
Then one day came labels and now you could go to the doctors, not just to find out what your physical ailments were, but to get your colourful personalities diagnosed too. The age of ‘ADHD’ was officially born and those imperfect ways of being became debilitating disorders that naturally needed treatment. 
   

The rise in short attention spans is definitely a thing. With the bombardment of a million different stimulants headed your way, concentration deficit remains at large. Like when you can’t live without coffee, your phone or insta vids (yes I blame ticktock for this unhappy state of affairs) then medication may well start knocking at your door. And who can blame folk?  If you need a little something something to be able to sit still and do a day’s work, then what’s the harm in that?  And there’s other benefits too, because let’s face it, we all know it’s far easier to deal with an annoying person when you know there’s a condition for their traits. Like when a person is posting way too much on the group chat, which then becomes totally fine when you know they’ve got some of that ADHD going on, and suddenly annoying bas*trd becomes a case for gentle sympathy. The world is a wicked wicked place my dad repeatedly warned me, so it’s actually kinda nice to see people treated better for any reason whatsoever, even for disclosing a disability in one’s personality.        

 
If you’re switched on in life, it’s a normal sort of thing for folk to be aware of their shortcomings and be on some sort of rocky road to personal self-development. These personality struggles are the residue of subconscious aspects of our selves, often developed through perhaps a little nature and an awful lot of childhood nurture of the dysfunctional kind. Everyone in the world can suffer from the shortcomings of a personality disfunction, however, aren’t these challenges for growth and improvement the very things that we ‘get ourselves out of bed’ for. What happens in the mindset of those who acceptance a medical condition then to reside yourself to the cruel hands of fate?

 

 

Labels make it easier to be forgiving of a person. It’s far easier to forgive a condition than to feel understanding for a plain and simple… good old annoying personality. But wouldn’t it be nice if society was a place where folk are free to live long and prosper just the way they are. Without medication to speed you up or slow you down, but to create the spaces and places that allow people to explore their gifts and live fulfilling lives just the way they are. Labels often become our limitations because the downside is that they can make folk feel less than they are, unless you have the personality type that thrives on proving everyone wrong.

 

When we believe that ‘we are something’, we exclude ourselves for being anything else, limiting our progression and expansion into anything more. But in essence we are not one thing or another, we are infinite spirit soul having a very human experience.  


We Do Not Comply

June 30, 2024


I’m having an existential crisis again. It’s been twenty odd years since the last one and now twenty years later, ‘here we go again’, life’s circumstances have left me with plenty more time to think about things and it’s still as depressing as ever. 
And then to add to my already large pile of woes, came a surprise letter! A court letter had decided to turn up after all these years regarding my non-payment of fine… Well I’ll be damned - they had finally caught up with me. 
                         
I felt sick to read that letter at first. As I’ve already mentioned; I’ve had a lot of woes to deal with recently. It’s been one of them where your out-goings have been queuing up one after the other and this was the last thing I could bear to read. 
I can remember clearly as to why I didn’t pay that fine in the first place. To be honest I didn’t see myself guilty of committing a crime, I had pleaded not guilty after all.  So it didn’t make any sense for me to entertain the thought of skipping on down to the bank to hand over monies of my own free will and accord. I felt that in doing so would have been an admission of guilt. Plus I was off-grid at the time (no fixed abode) and for all the hardships I endured, disappearing off into a puff of smoke was one of the perks of homelessness after all. 

                 
In a perfect world I would have stayed off-grid forever but alas, life doesn’t always do what you want it to. While it’s good to set goals and have direction, sometimes what’s better than holding yourself to account, is the flexibility to let go and just let it all unfold. So as it happens I am traceable once more. 
Its been a hot minute since my heady days of anarchistic resistance, and in these recent years I’ve even started to fancy settling back into the swing of society. I love coffee shops, hanging about town and all that fun, so it took me a while to weigh all up the pros and cons and I asked around for advice. Generally folk were in agreement that it could be better to pay the fine. The consequences and stresses were not going to be worth the paltry sum they were after. Sometimes you need to “play the game”, “pick your battles”, “what good can you do when you’re stuck behind bars”.

                             
To be fair I could easily have just paid the bloody fine, removing not only a financial threat but the physical threat of bailiffs too. But actually, do you know what miracle has happened since? Existential crisis has now gone out the window, and I’ve never felt so alive than in having this moral cause to defend. Is life supposed to be about always looking for an easy time of it, to either live for pleasure or to not live out of fear? You all know I’ve been known to take a little inspiration from only the best guy ever 'Jesus Christ' and Jesus taught us that sacrifice was needed for salvation. As Radio Head, Thom York in No Surprises sings it, I don’t think I’d ever be happy confined to the ‘pretty house and pretty garden’ while the whole world was going to rot.
So after I reacquainted myself with the morals of why I didn’t pay that fine all those years ago, my final word is this. If they want to take the money then they can take it, but I ain’t lifting a finger to hand over nothin’ in a quiet and orderly manner.

             
I was running from the law but now I’m facing it. Because the law and what is actually ‘right’ are two very different things. I’m taking on the authorities again, armed with my battlement of righteousness haha! Live your authentic self, don’t perpetuate what you don’t believe in and if easy life ever equals existential crisis, then you know what to do. 
Anyway, get onto this. Do you know where that letter actually came from? Only the London Collections and Compliance Centre! So for the record, no I do not comply with these corrupt systems of control and one day I do insist that, ‘Nineteen Eight Four’ WILL have a happy ending.





The Light and Sound Experience Part 1: - Sound

December 19, 2023

 Mind your P’s and Q’s
Are manners anything more than an outdated British custom of social airs and graces, for fear of upsetting the other? 

 Manners have for many years ruled the behaviours of the civilised British gentry, with records dating as far back as the early 18th century. Over time, these customs have trickled down from, ‘on-high’, and form the profoundly ingrained set of etiquacies; that make up the backbone of our social interactions today. From forming orderly queues, to quite literally begging for pardon: - manners seem to have found their own way of tidying up the world in which we live.
 

As the radicals and anarchists, the liberals and freedom fighters began to philosophise about life and its loves, the confusion for many lies in the rational of it all. For instance, does it really make sense to excuse ourselves, or to limit the freedom for self-expression; for exhibiting mere natural behaviours? I mean, if folk want to get offended, that’s their problem, right? 


I’ve travelled to far off lands, where the idea of manners, really have felt like a long way from home. I’ve been pushed out of the way by grandmothers and grandchildren alike, almost been sat on, on top of buses and experienced the total non-existence of customer service at the best of times… and I can say, it felt bloody annoying. Indeed, nothing made me appreciate more, the stiff, uptight, and people pleasing ways of life back in Britain.

In this muddle of inter-cultural, personal, and eccentric behaviours, we can’t by any means control what fancies folk might perceive to find annoying. But manners appear to be less about the perceptions of the afflicted and more about the righteous and careful consideration in which we choose to move about and respond in this world. When we hear an unwelcome noise, or are ruffled up the wrong way, there is nothing quite like the sounds of a sincere apology, to help clear the tension in the air. Words and sounds quite literally carry energy, with the rarefaction and compression of air molecules emanating first through a mechanical vibration. When we speak, energy is departing the vocal chords of one person and headed straight for the eardrums of another! In this way sound is a process of energy transfer and the absorption of this energy into something or someone else. 

The aristocracy didn’t just make a point of speaking to each other nicely, they also had a thing called finishing school.  They determined that how we carry ourselves and the development of a gentile character, would be a pretty darn important asset to cultivate in life. Just ask a magician whether words carry power and you will soon find out. Sounds can certainly invoke feelings in the recipient, and in turn sounds are released in accordance to the feelings of the originator. So is it possible that the energies of our emotions are being carried with these words too?


From the way that we speak to each other, to the utterances that make up the mudra of our personal being, how we hold ourselves determines the energies that emanate. Manners are a form of awareness and respect. They are the all-encompassing expression of ‘seeing God in everything and everyone’, to take that ultimate reverence for the divine and to apply it to all others.



The Light and Sound Experience Part 2: - Light

December 19, 2023

 

 

                                                           The Split Personality of Light

Forget military service, or a year’s work experience in industry. Why even bother to take a gap year out to go trotting merrily across the globe? Nothing in my opinion would enrich our lives more than if we all took a year off, in the contemplation and study of the very real *dichotomy and strangest behaviour of light.


Thanks to Gaven Pretor-Pinney, author of The Wavewatchers’s Companion, I have been, ‘mind blown’, over the past five months, knee deep in the reading and research of such a fascinating and mind-boggling subject. Because still to this day, “most scientists who have worked in the field of quantum mechanics would be at great pains to say, that they too have found the nature of light as bloody mysterious as the rest of us”. 


Since the mid-18th century, the predicament most physicists found themselves in, was the argument of whether light was a particle or a wave. Over the centuries, reputable scientists such as Newton, Young and Einstein, were able to convincingly theorise new evidence that would periodically overturn societal thinking of light’s behaviour at the time. This alternate - ‘is light a wave’ or ‘is it a particle’ conundrum continued steadily for over three centuries. But then, in 1923, the bonkers behaviour of light was finally revealed; in the famous double slit experiment conducted by Davisson and Germer, who discovered that light had all this time been leading a double life... inconspicuously moving around as waves, but behaving like particles, only while being observed [naughty].

                      

                                               
Davisson and Germer’s brilliant experiment didn’t, however, reveal that light’s behaviour changed through the mere act of looking at it. It was in the analysis of light, that had given rise to its duality and curiously still, this phenomena not only occurred through the mind of the human observer, but the same was true when the experiment was performed only in the presence of a machine. 
 

The peculiarity of light remains to this day bizarre, and there is no end in time and money spent in its continued pursuit. Could it be less of a question of ‘why’ does light behave like this and more of a question of what could the conscious self have to do with it? Where does the answer lie? Maybe not at the end of the Hadron Collider, but perhaps at the end of a very long and deep meditation. Is it that sometimes science can only bring us only so far, and that some things will remain as unanswerable as magic! 



Sometimes it’s far easier to forget the unfathomable than to continue to keep figuring it out. But in the thought, study and fascination of our magnificent universe, isn’t it marvellous that we are able to bring a little meaning into the mundane. Owing to this strange wave – particle phenomena, my studies have been endlessly fascinating... Life doesn’t always require a million-dollar scientific set-up to reveal to us it’s great mysteries, or to find in it your own truth.
So is light a particle or a wave? It’s most definitely both and we just don’t understand it. Some might also ask, “did God create the universe or did we just evolve here”? Well maybe it was both and we just don’t understand it… because it wasn’t one or the other… it was most definitely everything. 


*Dichotomy – a division or contrast between two things that are or are represented as being opposed or entirely different.


There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy. Hamlet.



End of Days

August 07, 2023

 In the end times of prophetic lore, we will do as they say and not as they do. Hypocrisy will be found in all societal teachings, from governments to religion. Good will be bad and right will become wrong.
 
 
when you're a vegan and haven't told anyone in 8 minutes

I attended a talk once, from a well-known spiritual movement. The subject being the vegan diet as oppose to the correct vegetarian one and basically how our dear vegan friends had got it all wrong. Because what those vegans fail to realise, is that not a day goes by without every one of us causing the deaths of millions of living creatures aka bacteria: - when we do things like boil water, cook food or clean up. So the grand vegan principle falls down because we all kill, all day long! In order to live there must be death… or something like that: - it was actually quite a long time ago and I’ve slept a lot since then. 
 

And I do quite honestly get what the dude was saying. Eastern theology teaches us that death is part of life, in fact it enables life. And life is merely a karmic pact that we have made with ourselves in order to learn lessons and advance on the great wheel of birth and rebirth. Lifetime after lifetime, until we transcend the senses and eventually perfect our individual human consciousness, known as reaching enlightenment.

Living creatures and plants are all made up of food and in the pecking order of life, a great number will end up on someone else’s plate! And that’s just the natural order of the universe. It is this same principle of factual dispassion that is fundamental to the spiritual approach to vegetarianism, a diet for the sole benefit of maintaining purity of body and mind. Because nothing gets in the way of god consciousness that connecting to the deep emotional sympathies of animal suffering, especially when were trying hard to maintain a cool detachment from the miseries of this worldly plane. 

 


Historically, the intellect is often viewed as being vastly superior to the emotional sphere, and much of our cultural and societal experiences have stemmed largely from this traditional patriarchal form of decision making. The intellect and feeling are largely different tools but both equally as valuable and invaluable together. Without this balance there has been much evidence in our history that has seen categoric failings in the morality of mankind… If human beings are capable of great compassion then we must use it. 

When we delve and dissect into the realms of intellectual superiority, the truth is we can make a case for any argument. Any narrative divulged in complex philosophical thought, can argue that black is white and white is black; where over thinking becomes over complicated, even to the point where we can no longer determine what is right or wrong. But at the end of the day a wise man once said... only believe half of what you read and if something is obviously right – then do it.